When Cindy came to the studio, we got along like old friends. We really clicked from the beginning. When she came for her reveal, she stayed and we chatted for an hour afterwards… she’s an absolute gem of a lady!
What does beauty mean to you?
Fark. Umm…. let me really think about that one…..
It’s the heart, the sass, honesty, vulnerability, It’s child like freedom of self expression. It’s a healthy self esteem that carries you no matter what you look like.
What makes you feel most beautiful?
I feel most beautiful these days when my kids say “You look REALLY pretty mummy” that makes me smile from the heart, especially when I know I look like crap 🙂
What do you love about yourself?
Physically, I have a body that produced 2 beautiful children. The youngest was 14lb 7oz (6.543kg).
Mentally. I refuse to break completely. Even in losing my self esteem I haven’t lost all of my strength. I always strive to do better. I will always have a sense of humour.
Tell me your story
It’s a long one. I’m not sure what parts you want. Can we talk about that on the day? Or call me and talk me through what you want cheers
So… as my psycholigist tells me, I haven’t had an easy life. You can pull the happy things together and make it sound good if you want or you can pull all the sad bits together and it’s a surprise I survived. The reality is that I don’t live in a war torn country with my life in danger every day but my life has been in danger at various times.
Weirdly the most depressed I have felt is as a mum. Being a parent has made me reconsider all I thought I knew and doubt all I believed I was. This has been such a hard battle.
In the face of a weapon it’s easy to be brassy and fall apart later. In the face of a drunken customer its easy to know where you stand within the law. In the face of losing friends to murder and a brother to suicide it’s easy to learn the steps of grief to survive.
In the face of parenthood there is no manual, no easy way, it is demanding and terrifying while exhilarating and rewarding. It makes you always ask “can I do better?” It is not what I really thought it would be. Bit after being told I’d be lucky if I ever had kids I now have 2. They drive me nuts and keep me balanced. But it’s harder than an 80+hr week in hospitality, raising kids and right now I’m trying not to feel broken.
What do you think was the biggest turning point in your life?
Kids. Before them I was drinking, smoking, working up to 80hrs a week and playing hard. Now I work 168hrs a week 😉 I don’t have much time for trouble
What are you most grateful for?
My kids. My family. They keep me going.
What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
Keeping my track record of survival. 100% sucess 🙂
What is your most treasured memory?
Mornings petting tigers and snuggling tiger cubs before work opened for the day 🙂 so relaxing and exhilarating at the same time.
What advice would you give to yourself when you were a teenager?
Don’t try so hard, it will happen. Don’t be scared to show how you feel. When people walk away it’s them, not you, that can’t handle the situation
What do you value most in a friendship?
A good heart and a wicked sense of humour.
Please finish the statement
“I am a person who…” would give the shirt off my back to help someone if they needed it.